Vanessababy's

若這一束吊燈傾瀉下來
或者我已不會存在
即使你不愛亦不需要分開
若這一刻我竟嚴重痴呆
跟本不需要被愛
永遠在床上發呆
餘生都不會再悲哀

人總需要勇敢生存
我還是重新許願
例如學會承受失戀

明年今日別要再失眠
床褥都改變
如果有幸會面
或在同伴新婚的盛宴
徨徨地等待你出現
明年今日未見你一年
誰舍得改變
離開你六十年
但願能認得出你的子女
臨別亦聽得到你講
再見

人總需要勇敢生存
我還是重新許願
例如學會承受失戀

明年今日別要再失眠
床褥都改變
如果有幸會面
或在同伴新婚的盛宴
徨徨地等待你出現
明年今日未見你一年
誰舍得改變
離開你六十年
但願能認得出你的子女
臨別亦聽得到你講
再見

在有生的瞬間能遇到你
竟花光所有運氣
到這日才發現
曾呼吸過空氣

These lyrics can express how I feel now and my thoughts. No, it's not about my love life(I don't have one anyway). But rather, to me, being away from home is like losing my other half. It hurts me as much as a broken relationship in love would. So these words express how I feel, being away from home. It seems to me as if I am fighting all this all on my own. To me, everyone seems to have a happy childhood. They can grow up with their cousins, locally. All but me. But it just occurred to me how I might be wrong all this while, when I was crying all the way after recess till I got home. In one way at least. The last few words in red expresses my exact feeling now. (what is wrong with Blogger..the size is not in my ideal state!)

Even thought there might be a thousand, million or even billions of reason for you to just break down and cry, or simply give up in life. But always remember, there are lots of people out there, whom care for you, love you. I would really like to thank my classmates, friends, teachers and family the support and love they showered me with all the while. Without you people, I am sure I would never have managed to come so far till date. I would like to take this opportunity to express my heartiest gratitude to my Food & Nutrition Teacher(Madam Chow), the Principal(Mrs Chan), my Maths & Form Teacher(Mr Loh) and also my Physics teacher(Mr Neo)!!! Next post would be a very interesting story, no doubt. But really, I must thank you for one thing at least, the path you gave me. If not for you, I would never be in this class, never have met such awesome teachers and classmates. It sends a chill down my spine even to imagine you being my teacher. Thank you for that, even though I really hate you a lot. Much more than words could possibly express anyway.